Thrive Camp

Here in Maryland, summer traditionally means camp for kids.  Most of Zack’s friends attend day camps of some sort.  Zack has never attended anything more than a part day VBS and then only at our church where people are very aware of his needs and I am close by.  I am not aware of many camps (other than ostomy camp) where there is staff to help someone empty their ostomy bag, give medication, and to help change wafers.  Add in his learning disabilities and camp seems pretty out of reach.  I have been waiting for the day when Zack asks if he can go, but thankfully that day has not yet arrived.

Sometimes life gives you gifts you did not even know you needed.  A few weeks ago, we were delighted and excited to receive an email inviting Zack to a special camp at our new church called Thrive Camp.  Our church has a pretty amazing ministry for middle school, high school and young adults with special needs.  The younger kids are always welcome, but there is not a specific program just for them. Thrive Camp was developed just for this age group and included siblings as well.

Words can never convey just how wonderful this week was.  I was able to meet other moms like me.  I have lots of friends and almost all of them love my boy.  But only a very few understand life with a child with special needs.  I get that and do not expect others to be able to grasp our life.  However, making new friends who understand our challenges was like receiving a special gift.  I thought the camp was just what Zack needed.  Turns out, I needed it too!

The organizers of the camp thought of every little detail. Every dietary need was considered.  Every medical need was addressed and there was a nurse available at all times.  You know that made my day.  Not many people really want to deal with intestines…

Camp was run a bit like VBS in the morning with a fun field trip in the afternoon.  On the first day, the kids went to Meadow Creek Farm and Calm Acres.  This farm is run by a lady with the biggest heart for people of all ages with disabilities.  The kids had a picnic and hiked on a trail full of hidden wind chimes and swings.  The highlight of the afternoon, however, was being able to paint on actual horses.  In a million years I would never have thought to do that!  I am so glad that God made so many creative and compassionate people!  Check out these pictures.

Zack admiring the horse he helped to paint.

Come on!  How cool is that?

The next day, the kids went bowling in the afternoon.  Maybe it was all of those winters spent in cold climates like Montana and North Dakota that started our fascination with the sport, but all of my kids love to bowl.  Zack had so much fun and could not wait to tell me how he did not have to wear those uncomfortable bowling shoes, that he was able to use the ten pound ball and, most importantly, he was able to have pizza and a fountain drink of lemonade.  What more could a child ask for?

Friday saw the group headed to Spring Meadow Farm where they learned how soft serve ice-cream and Sno Balls were made.  In addition, there was a scavenger hunt, a petting zoo and the farmer let them plant their very own sunflowers.  Zack cannot have ice-cream because it makes his belly hurt like crazy.  While all of the other kids got to have ice-cream, the staff let Zack make his own Sno Ball with all of the orange syrup his heart desired.  I think he will be talking about using the machine to crush the ice for a long time!

On Saturday, a sweet family invited all of the campers and their families over for a BBQ and swimming.  It was a fun afternoon and Jim was able to connect with some of the dads.  That made me happy.

The hardest and best part of the week for me was watching Zack.  He was happy (best).  He was free to be exactly how God made him without his mama telling him to sit still, to look people in the eye when talking, or to change this behavior or to a more appropriate one (best).  Not being neurotypical, learning all the social cues in life is pretty exhausting and just being able to be himself and to be loved on just as he is brought such joy to my heart.  It was hard because I realized how many times we try to change his behavior to help him fit in (which is necessary at times) and how difficult that must be for him.  It’s like asking an introvert to behave like an extrovert.  They can act like that for a while, but it is very tiring.  It was also hard because I realized that he actually fit in really well at camp.  Let me explain….

For years people had been telling us that Zack would catch up.  That he would behave more like his peers naturally.  Obviously Jim and I realized that there was something different, but other than his chromosomal abnormality which nobody can really explain the significance of, his diagnosis has been elusive.  It was easy to buy into his differences being due to his years of being sick and not having the opportunity to learn the same social things as his peers.  That his ADHD would get under control and he would become more attentive like his peers.  That he would run and play naturally with his friends .  He’s ten years old now, and the differences are not going away.  Things are still hard for him. Although he will always tell you he is awesome, he is different from his peers.  Seeing Zack at camp with other kids who are not typical just reinforced the fact that he really belonged there.  It was a perfect fit.  He loved it and had so much fun. I am so glad that we were able to see this in a place that made him so happy.

Medically, Zack is the same.  He is prolapsing several times a month.  Recently he had a particularly painful one that kept him on the sofa for three hours.  Though it was super painful for him, it was a good reminder of how far we have come.  Currently, Zack only prolapses a few times a month (any prolapsing stinks if it is happening to you). There was a time when he prolapsed daily and was in constant pain.  While our preference would be that he not prolapse at all, 2-4 times a month is definitely better.  His stoma continues to be very swollen a lot of the time which also hurts.  In addition, he continues to have periods of obstructed output.  This past week he went seven and a half hours without a drop out.  He was crabby and irritable, but once his output started back up he was back to his happy self.  His output continues to be high.  Do I sound like a broken record?  I feel like one.  BUT no hospitalizations, so we are grateful.

I have so much more I could write about, but for some reason this post has taken forever to write.  I think I’ll save the rest for another day.  Until then, enjoy this last picture of Zack lovin’ camp!

Hug your babies!

~ Dawn

And Carie S. …….you are welcome…..

 

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Update

After my last post, Zack’s doctor and I decided that it would be best to have Zack seen in the clinic.  Over the past two weeks, we have avoided hospitalization three times.  I think I needed the visit for my mental health as much as Zack needed it for his physical health.  One of the things that is hard to understand about living with a child who is chronically ill is that they can be fine one minute and really sick the next.  As a parent, it can become tricky to navigate the areas between when he is not quite himself and when he is needs to be seen.  Trying to determine when to call the doctor, when to stay home and hoping you are not putting him in danger can be emotionally exhausting.  Fortunately for us, this year we have enjoyed a nice respite from the hospital.

At Zack’s visit with the doctor we decided that it was time for Zack to have some imaging done.  We had been discussing doing this for some time.  Given his crazy high output a week prior and three days in a row of limited output (along with a prolapse thrown in to make things even more fun) it was time to be checked.  We tried to get him into radiology that day, but they were completely booked.  That made me a bit sad because the best time to see what is happening is when he feels bad.

The next morning we headed back to Walter Reed for a small bowel follow through. This test requires drinking barium.  Barium is a nasty, chalky white substance that makes Zack literally gag.  After a few swallows and a couple of gagging episodes, we decided that we should try giving it to him through his g-tube.  Have I mentioned how much I love that thing?  Maybe once or twice?

Zack’s small bowel follow through was done using fluoroscopy.  Fluoroscopy allows the radiologist to see how the intestines are moving in real time.  Zack’s intestines moved the barium pretty quickly until a spot near the end.  Then it seemed as though the barium kind of pooled in one spot and took forever to go the last little bit up and out of his stoma.  Evidently this is normal and no issues were found.  That frustrated me, but I should not have been surprised.  Zack has had this test before.  At that time he was really sick and no issues were found.  Zack’s doctor had warned me the day before that we only had a 30% chance of finding something, but still I was hopeful.

The hardest part of the test was hearing Zack ask the radiologist if she had found the problem yet.  He really wanted them to find the reason his belly was hurting.  Zack’s doctor helped put things into perspective.  He said that, though frustrating, not seeing dilated loops of bowel or obvious areas of poorly functioning intestine decreases the likelihood of needing another surgery soon.  That is a good thing!

On Friday Zack was able to attend school.  He did ask for Tylenol for his belly, but otherwise had a seemingly normal day.  Friday night he had a great time playing in the neighborhood.  I’m attaching a video of one of the many reasons I love it here (it may take a few minutes to buffer).  All of the kids were playing lacrosse when this happened:

If this does not give you warm fuzzies about how great kids are today, then I do not know what will.  Thank you to Liam for sharing this video with me.

Saturday was fun as well with a Memorial Day gathering at a friend’s house.  Zack’s stoma was really big that day, but he was running around like a maniac and having such a good time.  Sunday came and he slept until 8:30 a.m.  I had to check and make sure I was not dreaming.  Zack’s output was really high again.  He had a good day, but was exhausted at bedtime.  Falling right to sleep is not a thing that happens often here and he was out before we said prayers.

Early Sunday morning at about 2:30 a.m. (my favorite time of day..) Zack came in to have his bag emptied and was asking for ice water.  When I emptied his bag and saw that he had 600 ml in it, I was a bit worried.  I got an extra dose of CeraLyte in him, gave him an extra Imodium and two sodium chloride pills.  Then he started complaining that his belly hurt and needed to be rubbed.  Soon he was asking for Motrin and just could not settle.  He was acting as though he was going to vomit and just generally freaking me out.  I finally got him to sleep about 3:30 in the morning, but I was not thrilled.

Zack and I had a quiet morning in the basement.  He beat me at MarioKart.  I am pretty sure he cheated…just kidding.  He also spent the morning licking salt from a bowl, eating sodium pills and drinking water….as kids do….right?

See that little bowl of white stuff?  That is salt.  He licks it like candy.  See that white pill?  That is sodium chloride.  He gets 7 a day, in addition to his CeraLyte, and is often still low sodium.  That’s a LOT of sodium!

Jim and I pumped him full of CeraLyte again to help bring his levels back up.  I tell you all of this to illustrate to you that while Zack is “fine”, something is not right.  The test may show that his intestines are not obstructed, but this weird high output, no output thing is unusual.  Do we need to go to the hospital? No.  Do we need to text his doctor? No.  Do we have to watch him?  Yes.  It is hard to relax when things are just not right.

People often remark that Zack looks great.  He does.  It is hard to believe he was not feeling well earlier when they see him running around like a maniac.  It is hard for Jim and I to believe at times as well.  But, that is how it goes with him.  Jim likes to say it will either get better or it won’t.  Profound, I know.  Today we are hoping that Zack will perk up and that the sun will come out so that we can go to the pool.  We have fun things planned for this day.  And that is what we do.  We try to live each day as if everything is alright.. until it isn’t.  Otherwise we might just go crazy.

Update to the update:

Zack did go to the pool.  It was freezing!  His buddies from our neighborhood were there and he was unusually quiet.  His cousin called and invited him to our local fair.  We went.  He had fun and went on rides, but was quiet.  Zack is not quiet.  Thankfully, last night was uneventful.  I sent him off to school today with a kiss and a hug and  fingers crossed that today will be a good day.

Zack and Tom at the fair.

Hug your babies!

~ Dawn

Sickness, Graduation, Fun and Waiting

What a whirlwind this past week has been! Let me start at the beginning.

One week ago, Zachary’s ostomy went crazy in the output department.  A normal ileostomy should produce between 300-500 ml of output a day.  Zack has never fit into that category.  His output usually averages about 1,000 ml out per day.  Last Sunday, for no apparent reason, Zack’s ileostomy had 2,650 ml out and our boy was illin’…..a word meaning feeling pretty darn sick.  Previous to this, Zack’s highest recorded output was 2,300 ml while he was in the PICU.

Zachary was so sick that HE asked to be taken to the hospital for an IV.  Yeah.  He never asks to go to the hospital and asking for an IV?  Well, that has only happened one time before three years ago when he had a small bowel obstruction.  Obviously, I wanted to take him to the hospital right away.  Jim, being the man of reason in this situation, thought we should wait a bit and try to manage at home.  I agreed, with the stipulation that we text his doctor.  His doctor advised us to have a low threshold for taking him in, to bring him in for labs in the morning if we decided not to come in, and gave us instructions on how to rescue dose Zack with CeraLyte.

This is the part of my story where I sing the praises of Zack’s g-tube. His g-tube is a permanent tube that goes directly into his stomach and allows us to administer medications as well as formula.  The idea of a permanent feeding tube in Zack’s stomach took some getting used to, but now I cannot imagine his life without it.  I actually wish we would have gotten one sooner.  This little invention allows us to manage a lot of things at home that once would have landed Zack in the hospital. It is a wonderful invention and I am so very thankful that he has one.

Back to my story….later that evening our guy said that he really thought he should go to the hospital. Again, I was all for that.  Jim thought we should ask our friend, Sarah, to come take a look at Zack and take his vitals first.  His heart rate was elevated, but his blood pressure was OK-ish.   Sarah advised that if we wanted to stay home we would need to check on him every few hours over night.  Jim really did not want to go to the hospital and have Zack admitted when he was OK-ish, so we stayed home and monitored Zack.

As much as I hate to admit it, that was probably the right call.  Zack was a bit more lively in the morning, but still not great.  Zachary’s lab work that morning showed that he was low in sodium and chloride and had signs of dehydration.  All of that WITH his g-tube.  Happily, his output slowed down and his doctor talked me off the ledge.  I was really not comfortable with how sick Zack had been the day before.  We were getting ready to head to Texas and I was worried about getting his sodium levels back up before our flight.  His doctor said that while IV fluids would bring his levels up in a much more controlled way (and quicker), being that his output was back to a reasonable level we could bring his levels back up at home with his CeraLyte.

Jim and I believed that Zack had a 24 hour bug and that he was fine.  We flew to Texas on Thursday and Zack was a dream on the plane.  He sat quietly and did not fidget.  That should have been our first clue that something was amiss.  We arrived in Houston to spend the night with family.  Zack spent the afternoon playing with his cousins and having a terrific time.  Overnight he developed a fever and woke burning up.  But he had output and we knew his belly was OK and we needed to get to Austin for Drew’s graduation at The University of Texas.

Texas cousins.  We call them M3 – Mason, McCain and Morgan.

When we arrived in Austin, our boy was still burning up.  Not only that, his appetite was non-existent, his head hurt and his output was crazy.  When we are at home, Jim and I measure Zack’s output with a urinal.  I refuse to travel by plane with that nasty thing and we have gotten pretty good at estimating.  We knew his output was high, but we were prepared with the appropriate amount of CeraLyte.  Zack continued to have a pretty high fever for a bit over 48 hours.

The morning of graduation Zack woke moaning and really feeling bad.  Jim and I were concerned that we might need to take him in to be seen.  The second time in one week!  We dosed him with Motrin, had Jim’s brother and wife sit with him while we went to the Master’s Convocation in the morning (thanks David and Sylvia) and started looking into which hospitals were close to us.  We made a plan for what we were going to do when we got back to the hotel and who would miss the commencement ceremony that evening.

As luck would have it, one of Zack’s nurses from Walter Reed lives in Austin.  We were able to talk to him about what was happening with Zack and he told us which hospital would be best for Zack.  When we returned to the hotel, Zack was a bit perkier.  He still had a good fever, still was not feeling great, but no longer moaning.  His fever continued through the day and he did a lot of resting on me.  However, we decided with some Motrin and snuggles that we would chance graduation.  It was outdoors and we would not be infecting anyone with his germs.  Zack’s output was crazy again, but we continued with lots of CeraLyte and hoped things would calm down.

Can you see Zack under there?  He was freezing and had a headache and generally just felt bad.  This is how he spent most of graduation day.

On Sunday morning, Zack’s output was still high, but his fever was gone.  We started feeling much better about the situation.  We had a fun lunch visiting with Drew and Lindsey and our dear friend, Chris.  Chris was a nurse at Walter Reed and one of the best we know.  He took care of Zack at his sickest and we are forever grateful.  We were so excited to see him!  Zack had not eaten that day, but we knew he had formula overnight and were not too concerned.

Here he is at lunch with Chris.  He looks great, right?  Perfectly healthy.  Who knew….

After lunch, Zack wanted to be carried.  We had put a new wafer on before lunch and there was nothing in his bag.  Not one little drop. He said his belly was hurting.  All things which tell us things are not going well.  We went back to Drew’s school and walked around.  Every time we tried to have Zack walk, he sat down on the ground and said his belly hurt.  Still no output.  Jim and I once again started to be concerned.  How did this child go from so much output to absolutely nothing?  Was he obstructed?  We really think he was.  His behavior fit perfectly with an obstruction.  It took over 6 hours for his output to start back up.  Once it did, the flood gates opened and Zack was really hungry and his energy returned.

Yesterday it was time to fly back home.  Zack had a normal amount of output overnight.  His fever was gone.  However, he woke up congested and with bloodshot eyes and a headache.  Once we got one the plane, Zack’s output once again stopped.  Once again, in the late afternoon Zack perked up.  His output started back up and he was ready to go.  Until dinner..when he said he did not want to drink too much because his brain was telling him that his belly hurt.

We got home, had a shower, got into our own beds and Zack said he felt better.  He once again had a normal(ish) night.  There was a little output.  We were happy.  When he got up he seemed OK, so we decided to send him to school.  We knew he did not eat his normal breakfast.  He told us he was full.  However, he ran to the bus and told everyone he felt awesome.  And then the phone rang….it was the school nurse.  Zack had a belly ache and was asking for Tylenol.  She gave that to him and sent him on his way.  The phone rang again about thirty minutes later.  Zack was prolapsing a bit and still did not feel well and was acting unwell and even missed recess.  I brought him home and here we sit.

Jim and I believe that last Sunday was the beginning of whatever crazy is going on now.  When Zack gets sick, his ileostomy has higher than normal output. What has caused him not to have output these past few days is still a mystery.  It has happened before and we have attributed it to positional obstruction. It used to happen a lot during the school day.  But this is a bit different in that.  On Saturday, Zack was walking around one moment and then the next he was very unwell.  We are hoping that it is still related to his virus and not a physical obstruction.  There is nothing we can do about it at the moment besides wait and see.  If you know me at all, you know that this makes me crazier than normal.

The good news is that we are home and close to our normal doctors.  If anything happens, we feel much more comfortable with the care available here than in Texas where nobody knows his story.  Zack has said he will let me know if he needs to go to the hospital and Jim and I are on alert.  Still, the only thing we can really do is wait and see…..

As I wrap up this post, I want to share some pictures of a big event in the life of our family.  Drew graduated on Saturday with a Master of Aerospace Engineering degree from the University of Texas at Austin.  Even though Zack was sick, we were still able to enjoy the weekend celebrating Drew with family and friends.  Drew has worked extremely hard for many years pursuing his dream.  Jim and I are so proud of him and very thankful to everyone who has had a part in mentoring, teaching and loving our son.  I am also grateful that we were able learn about the great history behind the Longhorn traditions.  We have never seen such spectacular graduation ceremony before.  It was a mix of a parade, a concert and Disney fireworks and something I will always remember….and I finally learned the words to “The Eyes of Texas” and how to properly “Hook ‘Em!”

Before Commencement

Drew and his girlfriend, Lindsey.  Aren’t they cute?

After the Masters Convocation in the morning.

Last picture.  I promise.  This makes me happy because it was the moment we first saw Drew and Lindsey.  I think it captures how happy Drew was/is to be D.O.N.E. with school…for now…

Hug your babies!

~ Dawn

Vacation and Boston

Oh vacation, how I have missed you so.  Our family had a great time visiting family in Connecticut, playing in Bar Harbor, Maine and exploring Boston between doctor appointments.  Here are some of our highlights:

Boating in Connecticut.  Zack’s first time on a fishing/lobster boat and he loved it!  He was a man of many questions and is forever bonded with Captain Don.

IMG_20160813_231343_01Zack helping Captain Don drive the boat.

IMG_20160813_162355656Jake and Jim could get used to Zack doing all the work.

IMG_6164Zack and his shark.  Not bad for a first fishing trip!

IMG_20160813_220526112_TOPThe Co-Captains relaxing after a hard day on the water.

Exploring Acadia National Park.  I am not sure how we have so few pictures of this.  Here are Jim and Zack on top of Cadillac Mountain trying to pick up one of the islands in the harbor.IMG_6152

Bar Harbor adventures.  Jim, Zack and I took a 4 hour sea kayaking tour.  See those islands in the picture above?  We paddled to the third and took a break.  Then we went around the third and back into shore.  We saw some porpoises and bald eagles.  Happily, we did not see any of the sharks that also inhabit the harbor because that would have freaked me out.

IMG_6118 IMG_6110We rode the carriage trails in Acadia National Park on bikes.  We ate popovers at Jordan Pond, frolicked on Sand Beach, drove around the entire island and shopped and ate and had a grand old time.  Zack and I also went on a date on Diver Ed’s boat.  Diver Ed scuba dives into the harbor and videos the ocean floor as he goes.  The video is broadcast on board.  Then he comes up with some of the creatures he finds down there and the kids get to touch them all before releasing them back to the ocean.  Zack was so enthralled with the whole thing until the touching part.  He finally worked up the nerve to touch a few things.  Can you tell how hard it was for him to do it?

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After a week of fun, we headed to Boston to see Zack’s doctors.  First we met with Zack’s surgeon.  It was strange to see her in a new hospital, but she was as awesome as ever.

While Zack is currently doing better than he has in years, we still have some concerns.  You may have noticed that I have been talking about how his stoma has been swelling which constricts his output during the day and then goes back to normal when he rests.  His surgeon and doctor here both feel he is prolapsing internally.  One thought is that where his stoma was stitched down internally actually worked this time, but his intestines before that point internally are still trying to get out.  We think they are getting stuck at that point, cutting off the flow.  Thankfully things have been resolving well so far, but it is not supposed to be happening.  We have a plan in place now for IF things go wonky.

Today we met with one of the leading pediatric motility experts in the nation.  He asked us lots of questions.  He said that Zack’s case is interesting because there is a lot going on that does not make sense….yet.  He is hopeful he can figure out what is happening with Zack.  He did say that just because Zack’s small intestine manometry test was normal does not mean his small intestine is functioning normally, just that things are being pushed through.  We talked about Zack’s biopsies that showed eosinophilic ganglionitis, the possibility of autoimmune issues and other things, but he wants to review all biopsy slides, testing, fluoroscopies, manometries, CT Scans…basically everything that has already been done…for himself before giving his opinion.  Jim and I appreciate that and think it is a good idea.  Of course, Zack’s files from both Cincinnati and Walter Reed are so incredibly large that it will take some time for him to get through it all.

The doctor said that there are several drugs we can try to help slow down Zack’s output.  He wanted to talk to his surgeon about a few things first, so we do not have a plan for that yet either.  Even though we left without a plan, Jim and I felt that he was very thorough and we really appreciate that he wants to understand why Zack’s body is behaving this way.  Why does he have secretory diarrhea?  Why doesn’t his colon work?  Is there also a problem with his small bowel?  All questions his other doctors have asked before and have not been able to answer.  Somehow I feel good about his method of investigation and have hope that perhaps he will be able to narrow things down a bit more.  It is good to have hope.

While we were in Boston we were able to connect with some of dear friends that we had not seen since 2011.  We spent a great day at their home catching up.  Why do we wait so long to do these things?  Oh yeah…intestines.  We were also able to see a friend from our time in Minot.  Her daughter has been in the PICU since DECEMBER!  December people!  I am happy to say that her daughter is getting close to getting out of the PICU and to finally going home.  It is amazing to see her faith and strength.  It was a blessing to me to be able to spend the evening with her.

So there you have it, an exceptionally long update.  We are so thankful for our vacation and our time in Boston.  We are thankful that we had a fun time as a family.  We are happy that we were able to come to Boston for a non-urgent visit.  We are happy to have scoped out the area, found a hotel close to the hospital and to know we have friends close by.  While we did not have time to see all of our friends here, we know we will be back! Until then…

IMG_6104Hug your babies!

~ Dawn

A Summer of Fun!

It’s official.  We are having a great summer!  Finally!  We have been having so much fun doing normal summer things, that I have not had time to update.  Now that is a problem I can handle.  I do not want to sound greedy, but I hope to have the same problem next summer and every other summer for years to come.

Remember Zack’s summer bucket list?  Learn to play tennis?  Zack worked hard all summer and can now actually hit the ball most of the time.  Serving is still in the infancy stage, but it involves multiple steps and movements and that has always been a challenge for Zack. This time I actually have some pictures!

IMG_6044Working on his forehand.

Zack and his amazing coach!  Mr. Brecker is our girls high school tennis coach. During the summer, he runs a great tennis program for kids in our area. He has the amazing ability to give meaningful praise to every child.  I believe this is the main reason Zack loves tennis.  He believes he can do it even when it is hard and his body doesn’t cooperate like the other kids because Mr. Brecker believes in him.  You know I love that!

IMG_6072End of season award for working so hard on his serve.  He loves his new “Sport Glasses.”

Zack FINALLY began karate a few weeks ago.  We had been trying to get started for a few months, but had a few obstacles in our way.  Once we got those resolved, Zack was thrilled.  The most exciting part for him?  His uniform.  He has been wanting to be in a sport so he could wear a real uniform.  It is always great when a dream is realized.  Especially when you are nine!

IMG_1806IMG_1808Another dream our boy had was to learn to climb a tree.  We found a tree with a low branch.  He got up on it and felt pretty cool.  He thinks we need a tree house in our yard now.  Too bad our trees are still too little….or maybe that is a good thing!

IMG_6076We are leaving soon for our first vacation in three years.  You’ve heard me say that a few times now, but I keep on repeating it.  Three years, people!  We keep on pinching ourselves.  We are thrilled Zack is finally well enough to do this.

While things are infinitely better than they have been, we are still watching the normal bothersome issues.  Zack’s sodium levels continue to be a pain.  They are low again this week, but that is most likely because his output was crazy this week.  We are so happy that Zack’s doctor’s discovered CeraLyte.  I believe that CeraLyte has helped keep Zack out of the hospital these past few months.  We seem to be able to manage his sodium even though it is still low.  Zack’s doctor frequently checks his labs to make sure he is safe.  We still do not know why his stoma loses so much fluid daily.  It would be nice to figure that out one day.

We are still dealing with his pesky stoma swelling and constricting his output.  Things are still manageable, so I am trying to relax about the whole thing.  Note I said trying.  I tend to get freaked out when hours go by without output and when his stomach is no longer soft.  It is really hard for me to imagine this will not get worse, but so far things are resolving with rest.

I guess with all chronic illnesses, finding ways to manage things is key.  I feel like that is what we are doing now.  I much prefer managing things to going from one crisis to another.  Score one for Team Penrod.  It’s about time.

Now, about that vacation…..

Hug your babies!

~ Dawn

 

 

Zack’s New Plan

Now that we are back home and getting used to being in a routine again, I finally have time to update this site.  Zack was very excited to come home and giggled when he climbed into his bed.  He said he missed his pillows and his cozy sheets.  I felt the same exact way.  To make our first night home even better, Zack slept through the night for the first time in months.  I am pretty sure I heard rejoicing in the heavens…or that just might have been me.

While Zack was in the hospital, the doctors told us that it was time to start looking at some more obscure things.  I guess doctors have a saying that goes something like, “Don’t go looking for zebras.”  Meaning, don’t go looking for a complicated illness when a more common one is most likely.  The attending pediatrician on service this past week is a GI as well.  We have known him since 2013 and have great respect for him.  During rounds he told us that it is time to start treating Zack like an albino zebra. He said that Zack has been “medically brittle” for a long time and on the brink of disaster for months.  It is time to start digging deeper to see if we can come up with some reasons for Zack’s super high output and sodium losses.

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Big brother helping Zack be brave for his PICC dressing change.

Walter Reed and Cincinnati shared testing information so that we do not have to repeat a bunch of tests.  The doctors here came up with some new things they would like to investigate.  One thing they are considering is the possibility that Zack’s intestines are not processing sugars correctly.  This is all new to me, so it is quite possible that I am getting things wrong here.  They want to make sure his pancreas is functioning well and a few other things.  They said many things.  My brain was tired.  I cannot remember it all.  I need a secretary.

One of their plans was to have Zack undergo another endoscopy while he was in the hospital.  Sadly, he had a pretty good cough and anesthesia is never a good idea when you have a cough.  We will schedule that in the next few weeks.  During the scope they will take tissue samples from a variety of places.  I know they will be looking closely at the villi to see how certain enzymes are being processed.  They want to magnify tissue to many times greater than a normal biopsy to see the arrangement of cells.  They also talked about getting something from his bile ducts.  Again, I need a secretary.  If I come back in a few weeks and write something completely different, you can assume I had this wrong…but I am fairly confident at least some of it is correct.

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Zack’s high output also causes him to lose a lot of sodium.  I always knew low sodium (hyponatremia) could be an issue, but I did not realize just how dangerous it can be.  Because Z’s levels have been low for so long, we spent a lot of time in the hospital getting his levels back to normal.  In an effort to keep them normal and prevent such big fluid losses, his doctors have suggested putting him on CeraLyte 70 as his primary form of liquid during the day.  CeraLyte is a oral hydration therapy and comes in several different strengths.  In addition to using CeraLyte 70 for daily hydration, they sent us home with “rescue doses” of CeraLyte 90 to give through his g-tube when his output is really high until we can get him in for labs.  From their literature:  CeraLyte 90 is for severe diarrhea and dehydration–where fluid losses are high–such as in cholera or with short bowel or ileostomy.  Who knew this was a thing?  Why didn’t anyone know about it before?  So many questions…

All of that sounded great when Zack was in the hospital.  And then we came home and actually got the product.  Our home health company could only send the natural flavor at first and let me tell you…it is not something you can sell to a kid as something fun to drink.  While we can give it through his g-tube, Zack likes to drink and if he cannot have anything else all day it isn’t going to work.  Actually, he can have 6 ounces of another liquid, but have you seen ever measured 6 ounces?  I’m pretty sure we will have a mutiny on our hands.  We will see his GI on Monday and talk about the plan and see if we can turn it into an executable one.

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Zack and Aslan.  Quite possibly the most awesome dog in the world.  By the way…Zack is 49″ tall, so that is one big puppy!

The good news is that Zack’s sodium levels were all in the normal range when we left the hospital on Tuesday.  That was the first time that has happened in months.  He feels great and is back in school.  Speaking of school, Zack received his new laptop today and, even better, they trained me on how to use it.  I am pretty sure I needed the training more than Zack.  He is so excited to have his own computer.  He has already mastered the Kurzweil reading program and is enjoying The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe.

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Trying out his new laptop.

As you can see, things are getting back to normal around here.  We are so grateful for all of the people who helped us get through the past two weeks.  To all of our awesome neighbors, thank you for helping Jim keep Zack stable and for transporting him to the hospital.  To all of our awesome hospital friends, thank you for taking such good care of Zack and of me.  To our friends and family, thank you for checking on us, visiting us and bringing us food.  You all rock!

Hug your babies!

~ Dawn

The Family Plan

If the forecast calls for a blizzard, you might as well plan on some Penrod drama.  During the height of the Blizzard of ’97 in Colorado Springs, our son, Jake, decided it would be the perfect time to enter the world.  The fact that every blasted thing on base was closed, the streets were impassable and the hospital said not to leave our house made no difference to him.  Happily, everything worked out and Jake was delivered safely.

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Ten days ago as the forecast was predicting the Blizzard of ’16, I thought that I had food poisoning.  After 24 hours of that fun, Jim decided I needed to go to the hospital.  I figured it was either that or death, so I took my chances.  Turns out I had a partial small bowel obstruction.  I assure you, the irony was not lost on me.  The hospital admitted me, Jim made sure I was settled in my room and that I was, in fact, not going to die or need surgery right that minute and hurried home to beat the storm.  Zack requires a lot of maintenance on normal days, we did not want Jake to try and take care of him during a blizzard.

Saturday as I was in my hospital bed realizing that Zack is much stronger and way braver than I, my phone rang.  Jim was calling to ask me the phone number of our friend who happens to be a physician.  Um…. Jim does not worry.  Jim does not freak out.  Jim NEVER calls the doctor.

Turns out Zack was pretty darn sick.  He had a little stomach bug overnight and woke up lethargic and looking pretty awful.  After watching him for a few hours and watching the snow falling faster by the minute, Jim started to realize that Zack needed help.

Our friend, Sarah, soon arrived and took Zack’s vitals and they were not great.  I guess his heart rate was in the 140’s and his systolic pressure was 50.  She called the paramedics to see if it would be possible to get some IV fluids and some Zofran for Zack (thank goodness Z has a PICC line).  Normally, the paramedics would not do that without transporting Z to the hospital, but the blizzard was pretty bad.

When they arrived, the ambulance got stuck in our neighborhood.  We live in a great subdivision and word got out that we needed help and soon many neighbors were digging the ambulance out and sending it on its way.

Sarah stayed with Jim and Zack until she was sure everything was going better.  Jim put Zack to bed and all was well until Zack climbed into bed with him around four in the morning.  Jim said that those were the only steps Zack took during this whole time.  In the morning, it was obvious Zack was not doing better.  Sarah came back down and she and Jim decided that Zack needed to get to the hospital.

Once again, our neighbors came to the rescue.  One of our neighbors has a snow-worthy truck and he volunteered to drive Jim and Zack to the hospital.  That was a big deal because our hospital is over an hour away in good conditions.

Back to my story.  I was trying hard not to get too worried, but Jim had sent me a picture of Zack and I knew he was bad.  The nurses on my floor allowed me to go down to the pediatric ward to see the nurses there.  Because Zack has been in the hospital a lot these last few years, the nurses there are our “hospital family.”  They were awesome and talked to me and helped calm my fears.

Interestingly, one of the surgeons on my team was Zack’s surgeon’s resident for his first two surgeries in 2013.  I told him what was going on and he made sure that the Emergency Department knew Zack was on his way.  He arranged for me to have a hospital pass to leave the floor and meet Zack and Jim when they arrived. He also arranged it so that I could stay with Z in the PICU.  My nurses even came down to the PICU to take my vitals and bloodwork so that I did not have to go back and forth.  I cannot even begin to tell you how amazing that was.

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Getting an X-ray in the Emergency Department.

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Two of Z’s amazing PICU nurses.

Zack was admitted with a very low sodium level and dehydration.  We would later learn that his sodium level was probably not quite as bad as we originally thought.  We could tell that from some later tests, but it was still not great.  While he was in the PICU, he was able to see President Obama land on Marine One at the hospital and thought that was pretty cool. He was soon transferred to the regular pediatric floor and has been there ever since.

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Puppy therapy makes everything better!

I’ll save that story for another day.  I will tell you that he is still in the hospital and doing well.  The doctors are working hard to get his sodium levels and output under control and investigating a few other things.  We anticipate that he will be coming home in the next few days.  I am not able to update this blog there because my computer will not connect to their wifi and the wifi on the pediatric floor stinks.  I promise to update more once we are home again.  Until then…

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Hug your babies!

~ Dawn

Surgery #9 – I’ll Be Home For Christmas…

Ah….the ever-changing plans of Mr. Zack Penrod.  After planning to be gone for Christmas, packing all of our gifts, arranging hotels and wrapping our minds around celebrating in a new place, we are back home.  I have to say, there really is no place like home.  Our beds are cozier, the food is better, we have more space and we can lounge around all day in our pajamas (well, we could…). 

Zack has been feeling OK since his discharge.  He did not feel great on our ride home.  He looked sick and his stomach was hurting.  When we stopped for lunch, he asked Jim to carry him and he barely touched his food.  It was his first day off of pain medicine and fluids so this is not really surprising.  We may also have forgotten to pack Tylenol….not that we would have done that after all this time.  Sigh.  Poor Zack.

When we got home, Zack’s friends were outside and gave him a cheerful welcome home.  Zack managed to stay outside for about two minutes before declaring he was cold and tired – it was 62 degrees.  He has been sleeping sitting up (his belly pain position) since we got home. Luckily for Z, we actually have pain medicine at home AND give it to him when necessary.

Yesterday was a little better.  We finally made it to Sports Clips for a much-needed haircut.  In between turning pale and not being hungry, he had several bursts of energy that were so amazing his brothers declared themselves in time-out to escape the craziness.

We are working on figuring out this new mucous fistula.  Unfortunately, it sits at the bottom of his abdominal incision right where the waistband of his pants hits his belly.  His surgeon said she put it there to cut down on the prolapsing risk.  Another thing that might prolapse?  Awesome.

Our biggest issue at the moment is keeping up with his crazy output.  We have to start giving him bolus fluid doses through his g-tube to keep up with his losses.  He currently has his dehydrated look going on, but we feel confident we can handle it here at home.

We also had our first visit from Zack’s new Home Care nurse.  His PICC line dressing needs to be changed once a week.  Since it is a sterile procedure, I am not qualified to do it by myself – thank goodness.  I am sure I could learn.  I have been told that some families do it themselves.  I am just grateful that someone else is doing it for him as I do not feel comfortable messing with a line that ends right near his heart.  I would much rather have someone take over that responsibility!

Now that we are home, this family of mine actually expects our Christmas traditions to happen.  You know, the food part.  Trying to pull together all of the things we do for Christmas would be pretty hard, so we took a poll and picked some of our favorite things.  Today we will make two Christmas goodies, have our normal Christmas Eve fondue before church and homemade cinnamon rolls for breakfast on Christmas morning…or candy from our stockings. Come on!  You know this happens!

Our awesome next door neighbors have invited us to share their Christmas dinner with them.  I am not sure who is more grateful for the invitation, me or my guys.  Thank goodness for friends who see our weary faces and extend kindness.

Do not let our lack of energy fool you, though.  The Penrod family is counting our blessings this Christmas.  We have been overwhelmed by the outpouring of love so many have shown us. I get teary even thinking about it.  Santa coming to visit Zack on the fire truck, classmates cheering for Zack, friends giving Zack encouragement, invitations to dinner, packages and cards arriving at the hospital, doctors and nurses working hard to get us home for Christmas, all of these blessings….we are so thankful.

So while Zack may not back to normal, he is incredibly happy to be home and counting the hours until the “jolly old guy” arrives.  He wants to be allowed to sing tonight at church because, “Ms. Judy is counting on me to be there to sing to all the people about baby Jesus!”  And that, my friends, is the real joy of Christmas.  The birth of Jesus.  I am so thankful that we are home and that Zack will get to sing tonight and share his joy with others.  May we all have such childlike faith!

Merry Christmas!

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~ Dawn

 

Manometry Day

It has been a crazy few days for Zack.  Yesterday was so busy and LONG that I did not have a chance to write an update.  Now I have so much to say that I am pretty sure I’ll forget lots of important things and equally sure I’ll ramble.  Forgive me, please.

Yesterday began bright and early with manometry testing. All was fine until the introduction of medication.  After about an hour of testing, the manometry team put an antibiotic (erythromycin) into his IV which caused him to become flushed and feel sick.  The medication is used to stimulate the small bowel.  After another hour, Zack was allowed to eat pancakes and boy was he a happy child!  He ate them so fast he gave himself a stomach ache, but I think he thought it was worth it.

The test continued for another hour or so and then the nurse added another medication to Zack’s IV.  I do not remember the name of it, but Zack felt a lot of discomfort.  We were told it was also for the small bowel.  I am not sure if the first drug did not produce the waves they were looking for or if it is standard procedure.  Zack has never had it before.

At long last it was time for the large intestine medication to be given.  Zack’s colon did not respond how they had hoped, so they administered another dose. The medication causes lots of cramping.  Zack was not a happy camper.

Sadly, during the administration of this last dose, Zachary’s stoma prolapsed.  We knew it was only a matter of time, but really?  At least we were in the hospital.  The strange part was that Zack was on his back in bed.  It was not as large as some of his other prolapses, but it would not reduce on its own.  Seven hours later and several attempts at reducing it by the surgery Fellow, that pesky stoma finally went back in…..and then there was quite an outpouring of “stuff” from the stoma. Try not to think too much about that.  Let’s just say that our nurse last night deserves a serious raise.

We also met with the GI team on service to discuss a number of tests they wanted to perform.  They checked Zack for viruses, parasites, cystic fibrosis, malabsorption issues, nutritional status and a number of other blood work type things.  Because some of the things they were testing for were potentially contagious, Zack was placed in isolation.  That was fine yesterday when he felt bad, but today it was hard as Z felt pretty well and wanted to go to the playroom.  It is the highlight of the hospital after all.

Because Zack has had “Angry Badger” issues, we met with a pediatric psychologist to discuss the situation.  Her assessment was that Zack is suffering from medical trauma and could benefit from counseling.  That was fun to hear, but not really surprising.  One good thing that came out of her evaluation is that he is “a well adjusted child in all other areas” and only has anxiety regarding medical procedures.  It was actually one of the best parts for me of being here.  She gave us some great tips and we started trying to incorporate them right away.

At five o’clock this morning Zack needed to have labs drawn. His IV was not drawing back so he had to have a needle stick.  Five o’clock in the morning and needles are usually a recipe for disaster, but I am happy to say that Zack held it together and did a great job.  He was still scared, but was able to work through it with breathing and distraction and talking and a wee bit of crying.  He did so well that his nurse gave him a Lego police truck.  Talk about positive reinforcement!  So positive in fact that he has been awake ever since….

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Around lunch time, Zack’s GI here in Cincinnati came in to discuss the manometry results.  We learned that Zack’s colon had no propogating waves at all until right above the anastomosis site.  That means his colon does not function from the beginning of the large intestine until right above where he was reconnected. It begins to function above the anastomosis for a very little bit and then stops again until it reaches his rectum which functions well.

We also learned that his high output is a result of secretory diarrhea.  I am not sure if I completely understand this yet, but for some reason his intestines secrete too much fluid.  The doctors are trying to get a handle on this because it needs to be under control before we do anything else.  That meant more blood work, a change in formula and antibiotics. Because his IV would not draw blood today a new IV had to be placed.  Despite his great effort this morning, this new IV was just too much for him to handle today. The Vascular Access Team decided that since his IV still worked in his left arm they would leave it in place and put a new one in his right arm to be used for blood draws.  They were wonderful in granting Zack’s request to leave his hands free for playing Wii.  His tests for infectious things came back negative, so he was finally allowed to head back to the playroom.  Behold the two IV wonder:

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The last person we met with today was the dietician.  We were thrilled to learn that Zack is now in the 30th percentile for weight!  Everyone seemed pleased overall with his growth and would like to see him bulk up even more before his next surgery….and there will be more surgery.

We expect that Zack will be discharged tomorrow.  Zack is counting on it, so I hope nothing else happens.  The GI on service this week is not super comfortable with Zack leaving with his prolapsing issues, but Jim and I feel like we have done this for so long we can handle it.  The only hesitation I have is how long it took Zack’s stoma to go back in last night, but if that were to happen here or in Maryland we would do the same things and home is always the better place to be.

We believe Zack will be having a colectomy (removing most of his colon) in the next few weeks.  Zack’s surgeon is currently in China so we have not made any concrete decisions regarding which surgery to perform. We do know that she is planning to add Zack to her schedule the week after Thanksgiving.  That is really soon!

Whew.  I hope I covered everything.  Time is almost up here in the playroom.  That is my signal to get off this thing and say good night.  Fingers crossed that we can bust out of here tomorrow.

Hug your babies!

~ Dawn

 

 

 

 

A Bump In The Road

Hola!  Have you missed me?  We had a little setback here and I just did not feel like writing about it until now. Much to my surprise, I’ve learned that people other than my family actually read this blog!  Last night our small group from church met at our house and one of the guys asked me why I stopped writing.  Whoa!  You read my blog?  Thanks!  That was such an unexpected blessing in the middle of a yucky week.  Let me tell you all about it.  You’ll probably need a drink and a comfy spot to snuggle into because you might be here for a while….

In the over 22 years my husband has been in the military, we have never lived by family.  Living near DC, we are blessed to be near lots of family.  It can be overwhelming at times, but it is mostly good.  One of the best parts is that my boys get to see some of their Aunts, some of their cousins and one of their Grandma’s often.  Last Thursday, we had a “date” to have dinner at Chick-Fil-A with Grandma, Aunt A and two of our cousins.  Zack was so excited.  He doesn’t like Chick-Fil-A (crazy, I know), so we packed his dinner and off we went.  A fun time was had by all.  Seriously.  It is so fun to watch Zack play with his cousins.  He loves them to pieces.  I think Jake, our other son, had fun as well since he was able to bring a friend along.

After being in the play area, it is my rule that the child must be bathed.  Who knows what germs lurk in there!  Upon entering the bath, Zack started complaining that his stomach hurt and that he had a cramp and needed Motrin.  I thought it was a bit odd, but he does comment on his stomach hurting from time to time, so I didn’t really give it too much thought.  Ten minutes later, he again commented on his stomach hurting.  My interest peaked.  From then on, Zack was crying in pain every 10 minutes.

Jim and I changed his wafer, got him into bed and tried to make him comfortable.  At 11:45, after we decided he really was not feeling well, we finally gave the child some Motrin.  Remember..I told you we don’t like to dispense meds around here!  Zack finally fell asleep sometime after midnight and I headed to bed.

At 3:00 a.m., Z began crying again.  This time he also began vomiting and it was not a pretty thing.  Every 15-30 minutes he was sick.  He started telling us that he wanted us to call his doctor, that his doctor knew everything and would be able to solve his problem.  It was at this point that we knew he was serious about feeling bad.  I “slept” with Zack and tried to comfort him until it was a reasonable hour of the morning to text his doctor.  By 7 a.m., I decided the hour had come.  His doctor said to take him to the ER and off we went.

By the time we arrived at the ER, Zack was so weak he could not walk on his own.  His eyes were sunken and he looked terrible. He was taken right back to a room, an IV was started and all kinds of people were called.  We went to x-ray and then saw Zack’s surgeon who happily reported that Zack did not have another obstruction and that he was fairly certain that whatever was going on with Zack was not surgical.  Always good to hear!  We saw the pediatric resident who felt that Zack had a stomach bug and told us that his white cell count was high and his glucose was pretty high as well, but both could be explained by the sickness.  We also saw Zack’s GI doctor and he agreed with the other doctors.  After some discussion between all the teams, it was decided that with his history, and the amount of fluid he was outputting, it would be best if Zack were admitted.

Thus began our four day stay at Walter Reed.

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Did I mention that on that same day our dear friends were arriving to visit us from Germany?  We had plans to have fun and stuff.  Luckily, our friends were gracious and understanding and made their own fun with Jake.  One night when I came home from the hospital, all of my lightbulbs had been changed out to black lights and there was a serious nerf gun battle occuring, complete with loud music and strobe lights.  I’m happy to say that nobody shot my sprinkler heads or there would have been some mighty sad people in my house.

Back to Zack.  Jim and I figured we would take Z to the ER, they would give him fluids and we would be on our way.  Needless to say, we did not bring anything useful, like say clothes, or a toothbrush, or something to sleep in or anything to do while waiting for Zack to recover.  Oh, and our laptop is kaput!  How can one type without a laptop?  We really need to get a new one soon!  Anyway, my sister came to the rescue and brought me a bag full of goodies.  Bless you, Carie!  She was also able to witness all the staff in their infection containment gear as it was decided that Zack should be tested for an infection called C. diff.  The doctors felt he was at risk after his hospital stay this past summer.  He did not have it, thankfully, but we got a good giggle out of watching everyone suit up.  I don’t know why we didn’t have to be careful around Zack, but I guess that is something I can live without knowing.

When Zack was admitted, the ER did not have any other cases similar to his stomach bug.  The doctors told us that by Saturday, there were lots of other children coming in with the same symptoms. One of the lessons we learned from this virus is that what is a normal stomach bug for most kids can quickly become dangerous for a kid with an ileostomy.  We knew Zack was more susceptible to dehydration.  The doctors drilled that into us over the summer.  I guess we were feeling pretty confident about our hydrating abilities after surviving all those hot summer days without incident.  Needless to say, we were totally shocked at how quickly Zack dehydrated with the stomach flu.  He started vomiting at 3:45, talked to the doctor at 7:00 and we were on our way to the ER by 8:00.  I don’t think we could have done things differently.  We are hopeful that maybe this bug was just particularly nasty and that next time it won’t be as bad.  Be assured that if it does happen again, we will be watching him like a hawk!

Whew.  Are you still with me?  So we have other children.  Shocker!  I try not to talk about them without their permission, but this story goes along with the stinky week.  Our oldest son attends the University of Colorado in Boulder.  You know, the state with all the flooding?  Yep.  That one.  Our son sent us a picture at 3:15 a.m our time on Friday morning showing us how his basement flooding.  The basement happens to be the location of his bedroom.  I woke up, saw the photo,  turned on the weather channel and started trying to reach our guy and NO ANSWER!  I tried reaching him by FB, txt, friends, etc. and we could not find him for over 5 hours!  It turns out he was sleeping.  Ummmm…..We now have a rule in our family that if you are in a natural disaster you MUST keep your phone on……I am happy to tell you that he is fine.  My nerves, however are recovering.

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Just for fun, I thought you might enjoy this video of the flooding on campus.  The student in the innertube is Drew’s roommate.  They are in the honors program.  Yes.  It’s true.

To top off the week, Zachary started complaing that his stomach was hurting again over the weekend.  His output was up to 1200 ml/day.  His output should be about 400 ml/day with Imodium.  He wasn’t eating, had little energy and was totally freaking me out.  His was down to 700 ml yesterday and looks like it will be about the same today.  He is eating a bit more, but still not drinking much.  His energy is improving and he made it through the school day without incident.  Here’s a picture of how he was feeling.

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Tonight, as I put Zack to bed, his eyes were red, he was super tired and my mama radar tells me he still does not feel well.  His endoscopy procedure which was to take place on September 10 was postponed until the 27th.  If he is sick again, we will have to postpone the procedure again.  In the end, I guess it won’t really matter.  I just find it hard to gear up for sending my guy off for general anesthesia and then having to regroup and do it all over again.  It is draining.

I also have to admit that I was surprised by how exhausted Jim and I felt when we got home from the hospital this time.  It was a much easier stay, less serious, and much shorter, but we both felt completely drained by the time we got home.  After a few days to reflect, I believe it is because we don’t sleep well in the hospital, seeing Zack sick is hard and it brings up questions about Zack’s future that really nobody can adequately answer for us.

I debated writing this post because I really didn’t have anything nice to say and we all know if you don’t have anything nice to say, you shouldn’t say anything.  But then I thought about why I started this blog in the first place.  To help other families learn from our circumstances. The main thing I want everyone to know is that dehydration is no joke for kids with ostomies.  It can happen fast.  Luckily, we made it to the ER and they hydrated Zack and all is well.

I also realized that it would be really wonderful to meet another family with a child who has an ileostomy.  There are things that would be great to discuss with others in our same situation.  I’m sure we will meet another ostomate one day, but until then, hopefully something I write will help another mom.  If not, at least I’ll be able to keep our family and friends up-to-date on our crazy life around here.  If you made it this far, thanks for reading!